It’s strange that we celebrate birthdays despite the fact that it means we lost a year from our life. Now that’s optimism…
Variety is the spice of life and I can’t stand spices. Changes make my head spin. Another change in my life occurred today. We shifted, yet again. I dint know it was this difficult to move out though this is our third time.
I had so many memories attached with that house. When we moved in, I was not very comfortable but god and time are greatest healers. We moved just a floor above my maasi’s house. I was not comfy with so many people around and when I did, I lost it.
When you think life’s perfect, everything gets messed up. Same happened with me. I was happy and enjoying to the fullest when suddenly maasi had to move out. It was not that bad in the starting coz she lived with us for some weeks but when she left, I felt incomplete. I wish I could just not get attached to things.
It felt different with no one calling me, no one to open the door when I arrive from school, no one was there. Where ever I looked I saw empty spaces. I tried to recall all those memories but it just bought sadness on my face just like now in spite of the fact that they were pleasing memoirs. Those days I worked in the house. I was made to learn to prepare bread pizza and I had all the junk food in those days with coke everyday.
I remember my niece taking her first step, talking for the first time, doing some of her pranks, running to me, playing with the phone or ipod or just dancing. I remember me and my sister making brownies, eating them at 1 in the night, just chatting, watching tv.. I remember celebrating my brother’s birthday just the way I wanted mine. Everything was perfect. I did have some “not so good moments” but other than that it was just the thing.
My birthday did come last week with a lot of grief. We were about to move, I had to celebrate my birthday in that half empty house and hurt of a broken dream. It was a dream come true at least for me to live with those whom I consider my family and one day it was shattered.
The day started with saddy saddy mood and ended with a cheerful smile. I visited my niece, spent the day with her and blew all my money, which I m proud of. It was just coz of my friend who gave me a ride to maasi’s place.
Today m here writing this at 1200 am in the night coz I wanna take this out of me. now it feels good…
I did not anticipate certain friends of mine to remember my bday. But they did and I was overwhelmed. I don’t mind if u forget my bday as I cant remember any bdays but it does make a difference when someone unexpected wish you. They made my day.
When you laugh everyone laughs with u but when u cry, u cry alone.
Aise hi likha. A thought in the end gives it a better feel…
P.S- MY BIRTHDAY WAS ON OCTOBER 11TH, I WROTE THIS ON OCTOBER 15TH AND I'M POSTING IT ON OCTOBER 30TH.
