I am going to complete my 18 years of life soon and I realized I don’t have a perfect day yet. I’ve bad days, better days, good days and great days but not a “perfect day”. There has not been a day I remember I was happy all day long without even one moment of worry or anger or distress or nightmares. I don’t have my perfect day. Or it’s possible that I don’t remember it. Either case, I need a “Perfect Day” to cherish all my life.
So much has changed since many last year’s posts. I m through with my boards, have grown a little wiser and I’m back on orkut. I don’t really know if it was a wise decision but what the hell there’s always a “Delete Account” option. I said in one of my posts that I would never miss my school, which holds false now. I think I'm gonna miss it pretty bad. Good or bad, I spent 4 years there. No one can forget their high school in particular. It shapes the real us. It makes us what we are and defines what we are gonna be.
Changes if we are talking about then Kis Desh also became one of my disappointment. Why god why???? Joey style. Joey, Joseph Tribianni from FRIENDS. Moving on, I think I'm more of myself now. A long back I promised myself I wouldn’t cry as I always believed tears make you weak. Be it any movie, situation or anything I would hold back. It didn't work and I couldn’t really keep it. Well, promises are meant to be broken. Intentionally or unintentionally, they roll down my eyes many times.Its okay to cry. No big deal. Actually, its better to let them flow. Feels better, trust me.
Also now I know what I am supposed to do. In life I mean. I finally have a “lakshaya” and I’m hoping I get a good college to make it through. There is a really long list of things that have changed but its better to keep it short. So winding up, the most important change is that I’m bigger person now. I believed in revenge seeking but now I think its better to let go and move on. Forgive and forget. Forgetting things is my forte and Meredith once said that without forgiveness, old scores are never settled… old wounds never heal.
This is my first post for 2009. It should be perfect.
